Yep. You've been going through their sylladex looking for anything that will explain what they did or how to bring them back, because they planned this! They brought Ajact here on purpose using your powers, even if you have no clue what the concordance was that they used! And then they didn't even try to fight her! It's like... It's like you're not the only one who felt like you deserved execution for what you did. But that's not what Apoc is like! They always have so much confidence in what they do!
Except...
You can't help but think about the conversation you had with them yesterday where they sounded so lost, like they really thought they'd done something terrible and they didn't deserve friends.
And now they're dead and you're left here without them, with scary murderer Ajact and her even scarier murderer... bug... guy. All you can think is that you envy Apoc because they're not feeling lonely and scared right now. What a horrible thing to think about your friend who just got murdered. There's really something wrong with you, Zevvie.