AC: hey zevvie are you there
LL: yeah! i just got done visiting my denizen :] good news too!
AC: that's great
LL: ...
LL: is something wrong? usually u'd be asking a bunch of questions
AC: i kind of feel like i've fucked my whole life up
LL: :[ what happened?
AC: i was trying to
AC: i talked to anaglyph.
AC: i was hoping they'd be able to tell me some shit about how they get their information and i could figure out if some other sources i have are good
AC: they straight up refused to tell me a bunch of stuff and said they wouldn't tell me anything else either unless i traded something
LL: rlly?? they were SUPER nice when i talked to them
AC: you have that effect on people, zevvie. i have the opposite one.
LL: ur so nice tho! except when, u know, u get rlly into arguing
LL: didn't yuwen also start out talking to u with a trade thing? and u became good friends with them!
AC: the information anaglyph wanted in trade was "why are you like this"
LL: uh...
AC: do you ever get frustrated that i haven't told you my real name
LL: ok i know this is serious but my first thought was "isn't ur real name apoc" haha
AC: i seriously don't know what i ever did to deserve you
LL: awww >///<
LL: anyway that's a rlly weird question to ask! it barely makes any sense, it almost sounds like anaglyph didn't want u to be able to answer it?
AC: you think so? i felt like they were totally serious. like they were demanding this toll of honesty bc they felt like i'd never been honest with them before
LL: couldn't u just be honest with them in the conversations u have w them later?
AC: i don't know if i can communicate how hard being honest is for me sometimes. especially to someone like you who has no problem with it.
LL: :[
LL: that sounds like it sucks
LL: why is it hard to be honest?
AC: i've made a lot of decisions that i can't take back. i don't really want to take them back, because i got what i wanted, and maybe they didn't even actually hurt anyone, but if the people involved heard about them they would still hate me for it.